tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5457231017484475828.post5001566933541223766..comments2021-07-18T15:04:57.533-05:00Comments on Keeping In The Sunlight: Emotional WhirlwindKathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13542984912834780882noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5457231017484475828.post-55762652740647104432011-11-03T14:18:17.288-05:002011-11-03T14:18:17.288-05:00You don't need to apologize for anything. It&...You don't need to apologize for anything. It's not your job to know about the abuse. You did nothing wrong. I'm not sorry about it. It is what it is. It has helped make me who I am. Yes, that includes many negatives, such as the PTSD and OCD as well as some anger issues, but it has also made me more kind, understanding, empathetic, and protective as well as determined and strong-willed. I wouldn't trade those positives in order to get rid of the negatives. ; )<br /><br />I really do appreciate all the kind words and support all of you have shown me. They mean more than you can possibly imagine. : )Kathttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13542984912834780882noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5457231017484475828.post-41767991243054434212011-11-03T13:36:55.329-05:002011-11-03T13:36:55.329-05:00It certainly does sound like Dan had OCD as I can ...It certainly does sound like Dan had OCD as I can definitely relate to those examples.<br /><br />My apologies to you Kat, I had no idea about the abuse in your childhood - I just wanted you to know that you were not alone in feeling numb sometimes during stressful times.OCD Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05029991324831898750noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5457231017484475828.post-23679271591481128192011-11-02T17:37:11.529-05:002011-11-02T17:37:11.529-05:00Rachel thought that the numbness has two component...Rachel thought that the numbness has two components. The first is like you mentioned, Anonymous, it is my mind's way of copying with something that is beyond me at this moment. the second component has to do with the abuse in my childhood. Due to my father and his abuse, it was ingrained in my to stop and school my emotions, to think before feeling or expressing them so that none would set him off or make things worse. Because of that, I still do that and don't really know how to process or feel my emotions without first pausing. When this happens, I get that "numbness". Once I've had time to process them, which depends on the intensity and complexity, then I can eventually work through things. This is why it usually takes me a few days to process things that happen before I can even blog on them.Kathttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13542984912834780882noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5457231017484475828.post-23899197117162033602011-11-02T17:32:40.980-05:002011-11-02T17:32:40.980-05:00I don't know if it was ever officially diagnos...I don't know if it was ever officially diagnosed, but from what friends and family said at the memorial service, Dan definitely had OCD. He not only was ridiculously organized, especially when it came to clothing and shoes, but someone messing up his system definitely threw him over the edge. Plus, he could stay in his friends' homes, but he wouldn't allow them to stay in his because they would "mess up" his rooms. He even reminded them, every time they used the bathroom at his house, to wipe down the counter with the provided towel. I was listening and was like, "Holy Cow"! My mom was like, "Yep....". We both knew immediately. LOLKathttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13542984912834780882noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5457231017484475828.post-86873604647552839632011-11-02T14:31:52.265-05:002011-11-02T14:31:52.265-05:00Did Dan Wheldon have OCD? I find it somehow reassu...Did Dan Wheldon have OCD? I find it somehow reassuring that famous people have it too, probably due to seeing them being successful at something and realising that it doesn't have to hold me back from achieving my own ambitions.OCD Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05029991324831898750noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5457231017484475828.post-77824546775639516262011-11-02T13:32:28.049-05:002011-11-02T13:32:28.049-05:00I can only speak on behalf of myself but the numbn...I can only speak on behalf of myself but the numbness that you mention seems only natural to me and I can totally relate to it.<br /><br />I believe that during times of high stress the body and mind use this mechanism to cope with the influx of emotions and anxieties - I can think of many examples of emotionally stressful times that I have felt similar to your descriptions and that I am 'running like clockwork' without really feeling the situation.<br /><br />You said that "I can go from sad, to anxious, to giddy, to fearless, to angry at the world" and that is a lot of emotions to go through in a short space of time so I definitely believe that feeling numb is a perfectly natural response of the mind and body, and one that I can absolutely relate to.OCD Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05029991324831898750noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5457231017484475828.post-62114697108319470742011-10-28T12:23:17.306-05:002011-10-28T12:23:17.306-05:00I am glad you got some good news about your Mom. ...I am glad you got some good news about your Mom. I know how it feels to have "mom anxiety." Hopefully everything will go smoothly when you go back to the doctor in 2 weeks.<br /><br />I don't have all the answers for you about how to deal with worries and fears and such about going to doctors and med changes and "mentally checking out" and swirlling emotions. All I can say is that I SOOO GET IT ...I really feel ya and I'm here for support and encouragement if you need it!<br /><br />Big Hugs,<br />ElizabethElizahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18279501398388972542noreply@blogger.com